It’s been awhile.
I haven’t been writing because I didn’t know what I wanted this blog to be about anymore and it didn’t have any direction and people don’t care what I have to say and it’s so personal and sometimes I don’t want everyone to know about my life but then I’m like “F it – my feelings are valid” and then my friend Alexis started an awesome blog and she said I inspired her to get back to writing and then I’m like omg somebody likes me! and omg what am I doing with MY LIFE??
And then my sweet dog and my best friend, Tippy Toes, passed away last Wednesday night.
And my world stopped.
Tippy was really sick, and I’m comforted knowing that he is chasing all the squirrels and peeing on every bush in puppy heaven right now, but I really miss him. I only had Tippy for a short 3 years, but I honestly believe Tippy was an angel (barf, I know, but I’m grieving here people). He came to me when I needed him (at the end of college when I weighed 5 million pounds and couldn’t function like a normal person) and he left me when he knew I would be okay (Eric).
When I was thinking about Tippy today, I imagined him looking down on me and thinking, “Mommy, you are a train wreck and you gotta get your shit together.”
He knows me so well.
So I decided to start writing again because sometimes that’s the only way I know how to make sense of anything.
I’m a mess.
But that’s why you like me.